Welcome to my otherside....My useless thoughts

Just my ramblings about life, my work doing tech support for an isp, depression, and whatever else I feel like whining about. About the only time I sit down & write is when I'm feeling down. This is a venting for me usually they're feelings from the darkest part of my heart. So read on, enjoy and feel priviledged that I opened this window to my soul.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Friday night... tap tap tap... what am I doing home? Guess nothing better to do... blah

Today I had a good day at work but it was overshadowed by my jaw hurting, which in turn gave me a headache. Tylenol3 just took the edge off.. So I've been rather moody this week, ok so even more so than normal.

Normal? What's that? Seems weird for me to use that word. Oh well!

OK now some good news, was checking my email and saw a comment from someone signing my blog... MY SISTER! Jen, I love ya & miss you bunches.

Talk about a suprise, that definitely brightened my day. BUT It made me start thinking... yeah thats what that smell is... somethings burning and it smells like Jimmy is gonna go on a rant.

DISCLAIMER: Let me first say this, I have nothing against the general population or race of any foreign county, soverign or nation. I abhor racism, stereotypes & hate mongers.

You see, my sis is overseas in a bad place that I like to refer to as the biggest kitty litter box there ever is. Some place that you would have never heard of (except for maybe in a Geography class) if it weren't for the greed and selfishness of the the big oil companies that pull the strings of our elected government.

Ohhh bitter you say? You're damn straight! Send our boys & girls home, let big oil send their families or employees there to battle. Their families? Oh hell that would never happen, they cant get their lil fingers dirty unless it's politics. Their employees? No, they would all quit.

I spent a few months in Saudi, but that's cake compared to where she is.

I understand that there were alot of moral dilemas like the way they were treating their people. But why do we have to be the world's police?

These are my feelings now and if I've offended you.. tough shit.. just kiddin, this isn't meant to offend anyone except American politicians and Mr. Big Rich American Oil Company

I am falling asleep bye I gotta run


Sunday, July 23, 2006

A series of unfortunate events or a year in the life of Jimmy...

Last December I started having problems with my stomach and really bad abdominal pains. I cou;dn't figure out what was going on, my weight was increasing. I had problems eating anything with any spices, everything made me extremely gassy. The pain hurt for weeks before I finally couldn't take it anymore and had to goto the doctor. I went to the VA Hospital in Phoenix and found out I had diverticulitis.... It's rather gross but if you want to know what it is here's a link


The swelling was so bad that I actually got two hernias, one on my belly button & another lower one. It wasn't funny at the time but the one near my belly button reminded me of a turkey button. You know the little red button on the turkey that pops out when it's cooked completely. I was in the hospital for a while and luckily they were able to treat the diverticulitis without surgery. They did screw up and give me prevacet which I'm alergic too, that was a blast. Lets just say that stuff causes me to "flip out."

While in the hospital I got summoned for jury duty, since it was for a few weeks later I was told by my Doc that I should be able to go with no issue... Damn in my 30's and finally got snagged for jury duty and it HAS to be as I'm recovering from a major illnes.

Jury duty.... criminal trial for assalting a Police officer.. lets see the guy gets in the face of the cop, gets tazed, runs, jumps out from behind a dumpster & gets tazed again... ohh no the cop didn't have anything to worry about. It's not like the guy was acting like a SANE normal person. So almost a week into the trial, we get to leave early one day and I call work just to see if they need me to come in at all. I don't know what the hell I was thinking, of course my supervisor says "we could really use you today but we can't make you come in." Ok, so no big, I knew things were busy so I pulled off the freeway turning around for work.

I call my buddy Dave to see what he's up to & to get a heads up on things that might be going on at work. I'm using my hands free as I ALWAYS do, even so I see traffic slow down suddenly and I tell Dave to hold on a sec. Traffic went to a dead stop, I had plenty of room to stop and was almost completely stopped(going less than 5mph). I glanced up in my rear view just in time to see a car come barreling at my ass and it didn't look like he had slowed at all. The speed limit is 65 on the highway and honestly most people drive at least 75. BOOM! I had literally enough time to say "oh sh" didn't even finish the it. Damn old fart hit me hard enough to push my car partially under the car in front of me. I looked out my front window & all I could see was the hood of my car. Dazed I wasn't quite sure what happened, I kept sayin oh f... oh f.. then I heard a voice saying "Jim! Jim, are you ok? JIM?!" Took me a few to realize that it was my phone & Dave knew somethin happened. Only thing I remember saying was "Tell Chris (my sup) I don't think I'm coming in today." Or something to that effect. I was so rattled I couldn't even figure out how to dial 911. LOL!

So I was in a neck brace, had to use a cane, screwed my shoulder & neck up pretty good. But everything seems to be ok now. You can see pics of my car under pictures - Crash Test Dummy

My latest adventure.. I clench my teeth & grind them while sleeping.. I shattered a molar and can't find emergency dentist thats open since its sunday. I'm not going to the ER either... arghhh you gotta love a throbbing pain that makes your head feel like it's going to split in two...


No it's not your mind playing tricks on you, yes there is a new post. I've not written any public blogs in over a year and almost deleted this entirely because of some negative comments... wah people didn't like reading about my issues with depression.. too bad it's a part of me deal with it. This is for me more than anyone else, it's almost like purging my mind... one could liken it to a stream of concsciousness vomitting on my keyboard. Yech that sounded gross, I like it!

Things are going good good goood, lets see so much has happened in the last year, I'm not sure where to start.............................

I think my biggest achievement was that I was promoted into our Network Ops Center. I'm really enjoying the job! So much to learn, so much to do and so many opportunities.

My mom & dad (Dave) came out to visit last summer and we had a blast. I posted some of the pictures on the site then but never blogged it.

Right now, Kayla is getting ready to start school. I am nervous. NERVOUS! I don't know why, I worry about my baby girl too much and it's such a big step for her. I just hope that she does great in school and is happy.

I'm working on some other sections of the site now & trying to get some pictures edited so this will be a short post. I'm going to play catch up and write another entry just about my rash of bad luck!