Welcome to my otherside....My useless thoughts

Just my ramblings about life, my work doing tech support for an isp, depression, and whatever else I feel like whining about. About the only time I sit down & write is when I'm feeling down. This is a venting for me usually they're feelings from the darkest part of my heart. So read on, enjoy and feel priviledged that I opened this window to my soul.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Not been writing much, been busy & not feeling too hot.

I'm starting to get abdominal pains again like in December when I was in the hospital. I haven't even talked to Jane about it but she can tell something is wrong. I just keep telling her its a stomach ache and she doesn't push the issue.

It scares me that I might have to go back in to the doc & have surgery or have a another endoscopy and I Honestly am not certain which frightens me the most.

Gee the last endoscopy was fun... I had to sit in the waiting area wearing the typical gown that let's everyone see those dimples that were meant to be hidden. I got the good treatment they let me wear a thin housecoat over that while I sat for 30 minutes with nothing under the robe & housecoat on a cold plastic chair.

Here's where it begins.. Of course I'm in the waiting area so there's lots of magazines to read... Hey why not? It'll help pass the time... I start reading an old issue of Time and this little old lady coughs quietly & clears her throat. I think to myself "That's peachy, I'm in here for an Endoscopy and I'm gonna catch a cold too." I get about halfway through the magazine and finally she says "young man I think you should....." her words trailed off and she pointed towards my lap. It was then I realized I was sitting there with my legs crossed exposing myself to the whole waiting area! Whoops!

I get called back into the main lobby area and the male nurse could see I'm nervous & he's trying to calm me down by talking about the procedure. Boy it was sooo comforting with the male nurse winking at me & saying with a lisp " don't you fret now honey, I'll take good care of you." I almost yelled "I want my mommy!" He wasn't doing the lisp as a joke either..

Then I meet my new doc and she was just smoking hotm I thought about that for a second then realized she was about to violate me....WAHHH! I was still awake while they were prepping me.. Oh boy was I excited, who wouldn't be excited about a hot looking girl deciding she wants to go spelunking in my back forty. I woke up in the middle of the procedure, they had to grab me because I was trying to shall we say redirect traffic back to it's normal flow... I was like oh what's next is Dr Giggles gonna step out now? No I wouldn't be that lucky


Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Grrrrrr.... can't sleep and am bored as hell. Fell asleep laying on the floor watching TV. Ohhh what excitement. Not!

Figured I'd write something on here and that would bore me to sleep. Not sure if it does that or just bores whoever is reading it to sleep.

So what's new pussycat? Whoaaaaaaa. *ahem* *cough* I'm saving money to get me a bike. I don't have a specific one picked out but I'm looking for a cruiser style around 750 cc. I don't think I can get a 1000 cc since my legs are too damn short. Plus, do I really need that? Nope, and you might say I don't really need any bike, I say bite me to that. I've waited over 10 years to get another bike. It's time... vrooom vrooom

They're heeeere!

Who's here?

Not sure

I'm not though

Night gonna try to sleep again